The change of mood mentioned in the title occurs when you get to the caps.
So here I am laying on my living room floor. I have about an hour until my mom and little brother get home. I’ve stayed home alone three times this week, which means that I’ve skipped practice three times this week. I was going to go today but after a fairly rough and not so happy night last night I decided to stay home. The other two days were Monday and Tuesday and I was just being a lazy ass who needed two days to recover from a swim meet. I’m not really sure what to post about and I’m really tired so I’m sorry if this post ends up making very little sense.
I have less than a month left at home until I go back to the Academy. Up until last night, I was really excited because I couldn’t wait to see my friends and I really like the classes that I’m taking this year. This summer has actually been good and I thought that I was doing pretty okay. I was excited to start a new year at the Academy, hopefully without all the mental breakdowns that the previous year included. Last night, though, I had one of my worst breakdowns yet, and I’m really, really scared. I want to go and have fun at the Academy, but how am I supposed to keep myself stable there when I can’t even do it at home? I don’t really want to write about this right now. I want this to be a happy post!
I wrote a post last week about the three main reasons why I was excited to go back to the Academy, but unfortunately I was some how logged into the wrong account and when I went to post it, I lost it! I’m still too mad and lazy to rewrite it, so I guess you’ll have to wait for that. At the end of the summer I’m going to make a post about my summer by the numbers. It’s going to be pretty awesome.
I have had a headache the entire day and it’s really starting to get to me. OH, I FRACTURED MY PINKY TOE. How could I forget to mention that? I stubbed it on a chair really badly a few days ago, and then kicked the lane line during practice yesterday. It’s been swollen for a few days now, but the pain is finally starting to go down. It’s so hot in Florida. Ugh. I like the way New England feels so much more than Florida. I miss the crisp air and trees that aren’t planted in rows.
I’m going to cook dinner tonight again. I’m really not that hungry, but I need to eat and it’ll probably be good to get off my ass a little today. I’m going to make an appetizer and a main dish. I was going to make banana pudding for dessert, but for some strange reason my mom is trying to make me eat healthy, so whatever. She’s a little bit crazy, but then again aren’t all moms? For the appetizer I’m going to make this thing, and I don’t know what it’s called. It’s basically a circle made of alternating fresh mozzarella cheese and tomatoes with balsamic vinegar on top. I’m sure Fred knows what it’s called. All I know is that I’ve had it in a certain restaurant before and it’s really good. For the main dish I am going to make a casserole with ham, hash-browns, and cheese. It sounds really easy to make, but I hope my phone didn’t die because that’s where the recipe is.
I may post some more later, because I’m not really sure how well sleeping is going to go today. I may play Katawa Shoujo again tonight. I’ve gone through it twice so far. The first time I died and the second time I ended up with a good ending with Emi. I may also
play attempt to play League of Legends tonight, but I’m really bad and my wifi sucks so we’ll see about that one.
I have to go throw my clothes into the laundry so my mom doesn’t freak out when she gets home in like half an hour.
Until Next Time,
Jane H. Blood
P.S. This is very very true. http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-10461/15-signs-youre-a-recovering-swimmer.html