So as my first HISTORIES post, I figured I should start with the first girl I had a crush on, who was also the girl that I spent two years gathering up the courage to ask out. Her name is Phoenix. So, we were in every class together, always sat with each other, worked on group projects together, exchanged tutoring skills (I would teach her math and she would teach me Latin) and more. We were really good friends, but I wasn’t really confident in asking her out. I don’t remember my reasons, only that when I did, she said no. Seems to be a pattern… Anyway, the next year was slightly awkward and then near then end of the third year we got really close again but by then I didn’t have the same feelings. Seems heartless and callous, but I took that year to think through things and it changed the way I dealt with emotion. Phoenix indirectly taught me how to hide emotion. She also made it quite difficult for me to open up to people. I remember one of my friends telling me that I should just let it go, and I think that I have. It took a while, but… well, yeah. I have let it go.
I’ll See You,