One Year Ago, I was a Junior at the Academy. It was March 30, 2012, and things were just starting to heat up as we approached AP week. I was taking 5 APs last year, so the idea of AP Week was absolutely terrifying to me.
This time last year was also around the same time I took a bit of time off from my friendship with Jane. It is difficult to talk about, since it’s not my style at all and I actually make a point of saying that I never, ever leave my friends. However, to be fair, this was a specific and special case. We dated, she left me for another guy, and it left me feeling really betrayed and lied to and played and… a lot of negative emotions.
I should go a little into my opinion of Jane and my friendship with her. We dated about two months after we met, for a very short period of time, and since then, other than this one week or so where I wasn’t talking to her, we’ve been pretty consistently good friends.
Much as I like her as a friend, that break was necessary. It really bothered me, all the stuff she did, and I couldn’t just sit back and let the frustration and anger build up and stagnate inside me. I needed a break, and I took one.
This isn’t something I do. I stick by my friends, put up with them when they’re pissing me off, and stay patient with them no matter what happens. I know some of my friends worry, sometimes, about people leaving them. One thing I have always been able to say, even with this instance, is that unless they drive me away with all their strength, I will never, ever leave their side. I don’t think it’s as much that I tolerate anything as that I’m really, truly happy just having them around, in whatever way is possible. I know that can be hard for people to understand, but when I say “that’s okay!” I really mean it. I try to state my mind whenever possible. When I seem to be being diplomatic, that’s not an act. I’m actually okay with whatever’s happening.
As an example, my relationship with Ash turned into a friendship after we broke up. Rather than be upset about that, I looked for the great qualities of her as a friend. She was still the great person she always was, and we actually didn’t see each other much less. In fact, it’s been a very close friendship, and one I really value; in a lot of ways, it’s what always reminds me that things being different from how I imagined them being, ideally, is not necessarily a bad thing.
Now, I’m here. At the end of probably the best day I’ve ever had. I’m thinking back to the last day I called “the best day ever,” and I don’t think it compares. The new Doctor Who episode was amazing; I spent all afternoon down at the lake with Rose, Fred, and Fiona; I had plenty of tea; I burned some CDs to send via mail to Violet; and, finally, I watched a few minutes of my favorite movie ever, of all time. It is the greatest. The most awesome. The most amazing. A stand-out among stand-outs. A classic among classics. Over-the-top, ridiculous, and above all TOTALLY AWESOME. That’s right: Cameron’s Terminator. Rose agreed to watch a few minutes and – get this – DIDN’T MIND IT TOO MUCH. More proof that she’s awesome.
P.S. Today was the best. Tomorrow is Easter! The next day is a day off! It’s going to add up to a good weekend, methinks.