So I have been working on a long writing project for many years now, and I’ve been working on new parts of the story. It takes place far in the future, and the part I’m working on right now has to do with a big war.
I was kind of inspired by this English class I had recently in which we talked about Vietnam. We were talking about the battles, the horrors of the war, all the terrible things that happened, and the whole idealism behind it… and that made me want to write about this war that is occasionally mentioned in the series, but never actually described in full detail. I don’t know how I’m going to do it yet, but I want it to be good.
Tonight is a late night. I’ve had a lot of soda and some easy mac, and I’ve been reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower while I watch various movies. First I watched The Cabin in the Woods, which was awesome. Next I watched the end of Stranger Than Fiction, which is also superb. Right now I’m watching No Country for Old Men, which is pretty freaking awesome so far. I guess I’ve gotten lucky with tonight’s movie choices.
Perks is hard to read because a lot of it reminds me, at least partially, of bits of my own story, memories, etc. I’ve felt the same way as Charlie did in different parts of the book at one time or another, so it’s hard to read because it’s real. That’s something Violet and I were talking about the other day – how, when something/someone tells you something you connect with, you feel both comforted and threatened.
I guess human connection is something I’ve been thinking a lot lately. I don’t know why exactly. Rose, Violet, Jane, Victor, Fred, Liza, Girl 1, and all the other people I’m friends with are all my friends for different reasons. Especially the closest friends I have. I’m friends with them for different reasons, and we get along and connect in different ways. I guess it’s no surprise that my brain developed different thought patterns, since I practically have to shift into a different way of thinking for each person I talk to.
Holy crap, this movie is very violent. I’m okay with that, though. It’s really good, and the acting is superb. The one amazingly special thing about this movie (and I feel this way with a lot of movies about life in rural areas) is that I can really connect with how the characters are thinking, at least partially. That’s something I like, when a movie can do that properly.
That’s something I have to remember, when I’m writing. I may be writing about things that are incredibly violent, even wars, but the important thing (at least to me) is the people. How they think, what they do, how they interact with other people. Situations are just situations, but how people react to those situations is the really interesting part of it.
Everyone is leaving for break tomorrow. I am seriously concerned about how it will affect my state of mind but will try not to reveal that or let it affect me. I’m happy with my current life, and I hope this break doesn’t change anything. Sometimes breaks can change lives. The last break did, but that may have been a good thing ultimately, as it brought me closer to some of my friends in the end. But now I don’t want to lose my friends. I hope this break doesn’t make me lose any friends. That’s the last thing I want, as usual.
Sometimes I think my whole life is about not losing friends. That might sound silly, but I consider it important. Loyalty and being kind to those who are loyal is just about the most important thing in the whole world.
As always, thanks for reading. Fred is on a big Doctor Who marathon tonight, so ALLONS-Y!
P.S. I met two new friends today. Their names are Julia and Julie. I know that sounds hard to believe, but they’re actually good friends and have those names. They tried to comfort me after I failed my Physics test, which I appreciated. Julie told me I might not have actually failed it. Julia laughed really hard at all my horror stories about it. Both of them helped me out a lot. I was not happy about that test, and I’d prepared for it for a whole bunch of hours, so I was a little upset about what seemed like wasted effort. Freaking physics tests.
P.P.S. Sorry for the long, rambling post. I am majorly hopped on caffeine and my brain is not firing on all cylinders. Try to make some sense out of it – what you can, at least. I hope it’s at least intelligible.