So, the weather here at the academy has taken a turn for the worse, as it has been raining almost nonstop for a day. It just keeps on pouring, and no matter how hard I try to stay dry, I still get drenched. The weather seems to be effecting some of my friends, as they are becoming a little more introverted and little less active in public areas (I know that sounds repetitive, but in my mind it makes sense). As much as I try to keep everyone I care about happy, I am finding that with the Winter Show coming up, I have less and less time each day to shelter all of my closest friends from the dangers of self pity and depression. Fun, right? I was called the mother hen of the group I spend most of my time with, and since then I have tried to live up to that reputation and make sure that everyone I care about is safe. But that becomes difficult when I actually think about who I want to make sure is OK. Which is a quite large group of people, but not unmanageable if I can budget my time wisely.
That brings me to my second point, which is a relationship. I would like more than anything to be in a relationship with someone, and there are a few girls I could see it working out with, but there is one who stands out above the rest: Beatrice. I don’t know if I should ask her out, for a few reasons. If early readers may recall, I previously believed that she did not have any feelings towards me. But I have reason to believe that has changed. The issue that remains in my mind is her best friend; I think she still likes me, and although she won’t admit it all of her friends have told me that she does. :/ Unsure of where to go from here. But, there is also Fiona, who kissed me on the cheek after the show tonight. It didn’t mean anything, but it got me thinking if there could be anything there. (UPDATE 5/23/13 – I was an idiot for thinking this.) Also, one of the stage hands (and this is probably my imagination) seemed very into me tonight while I was freaking out about my upcoming scenes. (UPDATE 5/23/13 – I was an idiot for thinking this.) Who knows though. The downside to all this thought is that I don’t know if I have enough time to be in a full, committed relationship, one where I can actually give someone the full attention they deserve while also keeping watch over everyone else. I guess if the girl was also good at making sure people were OK…
And because we haven’t spoken much about antics for a while, I decided that I would shave my head today, and the looks and stares of people and the constant laughing that I hear when I walk by is priceless. I mean, who else in their right mind would do something that outrageous?
The storm might still be brewing outside, but inside its warm and cozy as I listen to my music and do my homework, which has built up in the past few days. I should probably get some sleep tonight, but I am busy talking with Beatrice and therefore, I will not until she is tired.
Until next time,